I am thankful, I am thankful, I am thankful...

I have read blogs of other pregnant women and I don't remember them complaining so much. I am working really really hard to stay positive. I need prayers, and tips for dealing with the queasies and the fatigue. Part of it I think is just understanding my limitations. I feel like it is not okay for me to not make dinner. Not because of Ross...he has been very understanding and helpful...but I have been putting that guilt on myself. I pretty much get home from work, shove something in my mouth (usually a cup-of -noodles and a small bag of baby carrots or fruit) and then by 9pm I'm ready for bed. My mom told me that I am doing enough by just going to work 8 hours a day and I shouldn't expect any more of myself. I just miss being Ross's wife who cooks and does fun stuff in the evenings. I told him I was worried he didn't like me anymore and he told me I was being silly. He loves that I'm growing his baby. Awe.

Interestingly enough work has been great. Keeping busy helps, and it also helps that I love my job, my patients, and the people I work with. So I am so thankful for that. I also have to keep reminding myself that I WANTED this! I made this happen. In fact, a mere two weeks ago I even kind of "wished" for some nausea just so I would know I was really pregnant. I could kick myself for that!

Well today should be good. I think I just need to make myself a simple list of "goals and reasonable expectations" so I don't get dissapointed. This morning I made smoothies for breakfast. Ross and I are going to go for a walk to Safeway in about an hour or so. Then I will take a shower (yeah, I got a late start today). Then I will make homemade bread and soup for late lunch/early dinner, and then go to Ross's concert tonight and try to stay awake the whole time.